La Bestiole Noire

Meet La Bestiole Noire (Little Black Bug). He likes to visit from time to time. He was introduced to me by an old roommate who helped me a lot through my divorce and my new life after that. Every time I got sad and discouraged, she remind me that I had to squish la petite bestiole noire, the bad thoughts in my head, the little voices telling me that I couldn’t do things.

For whatever reason I have a case of la petite bestiole noire today and I’m not liking it a little bit. Instead of looking at my successes during the last months I’m thinking that I won’t be able to accomplish my goals for a healthier, happier life. That’s actually pretty stupid, considering I’m sticking with an exercise routine, I joined Weight Watchers and if I go back and look at my medical records for the last year or so, I’ve lost some weight. Hopefully the new routine will make me lose even more. Looking at other people’s success stories should encourage me rather than make thing I’m not going to make it; and that’s what the bestiole does to me. I have to fight it.

So why is the bestiole here today? I have no idea. It shouldn’t even knock at my door. I’m keeping myself on track, I’m doing awesome, my blood sugars have been within the normal range for a person without diabetes. My legs hurt a lot from exercising, but every day when I get home for work I turn on the XBOX and Zumba my pain away. My husband and I are thinking about buying bicycles so we can start a new healthy hobby.

Yeah, there is no room for the bestiole in my life so I’m going to squish it and I hope you do, too, when he decides to visit.

There’s an excellent post today at Tiny Buddha, about not letting self-defeating attitudes stop us from doing what we want to do. Go and read it!

His Thoughts About Type 2

I asked my husband to write something about diabetes from his perspective. This is what he had to say about living with a person who has type 2 diabetes.

Diabetes sucks, no way around that fact. It is a disease that affects people in a big way no matter what type they have. The hardest thing for me to understand was that a metabolic disease affects a the person in a lot of levels. So my tale begins.

I still don’t understand as much about diabetes as I should, but I try to keep myself somewhat informed. The truth of diabetes is that while it affects all facets of your life when you have it, it is not the only culprit. Sure, sometimes a “low” can cause impatience, hunger, thirst, but the person can also be simply hungry, thirsty or in an impatient mood. Living with someone with diabetes makes you learn to keep track of that and also learn how to prevent it.

That is probably the most frustrating part of diabetes with your significant other. The problem is metabolism, but a lot of it comes from how your body reacts to nutrition, especially for people with type 2. It is not only about, โ€œhey, don’t eat sugar.โ€ You would think that the hardest part would be to tell someone, โ€œhey, you should not eat that…โ€ Actually the hard part is to get them to eat when they don’t want to.

A lot of people link obesity with diabetes, especially type 2. The reality is that the frustrating thing of the disease is that even when you do eat healthy, your body might not process the good food as well either. That and that it is all about constant good nutrition, not just good nutrition when the “bad” cop is around.

That is the part I hate about diabetes, being the “bad” cop. Having to tell your loved one that ice cream might not be the right thing to eat when you know they want to eat it. I am in an even worse situation because I don’t care for sugar at all. I can go months or years without ice cream, cookies or cakes. If your significant other is someone that loves those things, it feels horrible because they don’t tell you not to eat bacon even though you have a history of heart disease in your family. It is a constant struggle between being loving, understanding and also supportive.

Then again, I struggle with making sure that my wife eats properly when I am not around. She is not very good about snacking and ends up not eating anything all morning and being really low by lunch time. While the highs are sometimes considered the dangerous ones when dealing with diabetes, the lows also happen quite often.

Besides nutrition the other factor that diabetes affects is energy. You cannot process the fuel, so your energy level is probably lower as well right?

Even though I have been very sedentary for years working in the computer field, I do have energy to do stuff. It can get frustrating when that energy does not match your significant others energy. Everyone loves to talk about exercise, but how about when there is no energy to do that because your body is not processing things to give you that energy in an efficient and constant manner?

Enough about the lows though. Life with a diabetic is no different than life with anyone else. Everyone, as they get older, has aches and pains. Diabetics get to learn to deal with those and adjust a lot earlier in life. It is also awesome when you see that their careful care of their disease yields good A1C numbers… whatever A1C is ๐Ÿ™‚

You can visit my hubby’s blog and read more of what he has to say about everything. I married a smart one!