I’m not one to vent my personal life in public; I find it distasteful. I may post something here and there because feelings get the best of me sometimes, but I try to keep it quiet, or at least inside a very close circle, when it comes to life’s challenges. I’m going through a divorce. It isn’t fun… it’s very painful in fact. The people I love the most know about it and they give me the support I need. For that I’m extremely grateful. I just never thought the Diabetes Online Community would be another source of comfort for me during this time. Not only comfort, but inspiration.
This past weekend I attended my 3rd Social Media Summit hosted by Roche Diagnostics, which I will post more about later. Being there, with old and new friends, showed me that, for me, advocating and working for people with diabetes is not something I do just for fun… It is a passion, it is something I want to do for the rest of my life, it is something I want get better at. And working so hard for DSMA and the community in general has given me a vision of what I want my purpose to be.
I’m kind of tearing up while typing this because I may not be very familiar with epiphanies, but there are times in your life when the road looks really dark ahead, but you can clearly see what’s on the other side. And my road is really dark right now. I’m living every day as it comes, trying to make the best out of a bad situation and trying to figure out what the next step is in order to grow as a person. I think I’ve known what I want to do for a long time… I was just afraid of making it happen, or afraid I couldn’t make it happen. But right now I feel like I can, I know I can. It may take a little while to get there, but I’m looking forward to the ride. Endings are new beginnings and this is my new beginning.
What is this great plan I’m talking about? I don’t have any specifics at the moment, but I can say that what I really want to do is to become is a Certified Diabetes Educator (CDE). I don’t know which route I’m taking yet —probably Nutrition— but I have the right kind of encouragement from people I trust and love, and that is a huge start. I think the A-ha moment came at my therapist’s office when she told me this is the time for me to work on what I really want and she painted a picture of what I can be/do. It won’t be easy, but it will be worth it and I’ve taken the first steps already.
So thank you, DOC, for helping me find my purpose and passion… or making it clear.