2013 has been… interesting. A lot of life changes; most of them good (like moving to a new apartment closer to work), some of them sad (my boyfriend lost his mom to cancer). Life has also been extremely busy since the end of February when I got a second job, but that’s a story for another day.
Anyway, between dealing with all the changes and having a crazy work schedule I feel like I’ve been slipping through the cracks with my diabetes management. I don’t feel sick, but I know that when I go to see my endocrinologist this afternoon I won’t get a shiny A1C result like the one I got 3 months ago. Running from place to place I’ve made more than a few unhealthy choices when it comes to eating; thankfully I have a boyfriend who likes to cook healthy, so at least I get to fit some healthy meals in. Still, frustrating because time management and diabetes management seem to be a huge problem for me these days.
So today I find myself afraid of going to see my endocrinologist. Or maybe it’s just shame because at the end of the day I feel like I have nothing but excuses for my poor diabetes management, even if people around me tell me they don’t blame me because they’ve never seen someone so busy, and they have no idea of how I do all this. But I’m not going to cancel/reschedule my appointment; it only adds insult to the injury.
This is the first time in my life when I hardly have any free time—the little I have I spend it trying to get some rest—and I’m here wondering if I’ll ever get the hang of this. How do people manage? All I can say is that I’ve had it easy for a while, and I know I’ll figure it out at some point, but right now I’m not so proud of myself when it comes to taking care of this body.
Suggestions/ideas are welcome.