D-Blog Week 2013 – Day 4: We don’t always realize it, but each one of us had come a long way since diabetes first came into our life. It doesn’t matter if it’s been 5 weeks, 5 years or 50 years, you’ve done something outstanding diabetes-wise. So today let’s share the greatest accomplishment you’ve made in terms of dealing with your (or your loved one’s) diabetes. No accomplishment is too big or too small – think about self-acceptance, something you’ve mastered, making a tough care decision, etc.
I think my biggest, most recent accomplishment is self-acceptance. I’ve spent most part of my life being extremely hard on myself, or letting other people’s opinion of me affect me. I’ve let it destroy part of who I am to the point that I let others convince me I had to be different in order to be happy.
Truth is, the moment I stopped and accepted myself with every single one of my flaws (physical and emotional) I finally understood that I don’t have to be different, or think differently, or change who I am or how I feel.
So what if I’m overweight? That’s up to me to deal with and change if I want it to change, not because of what others may think of me. The more people I meet, the more I realize they’re looking way beyond my extra pounds.
So what if I deal with depression and anxiety? I didn’t choose it, I do the best I can. I’ve been dealing with this since I was 19 and yet I’ve managed to live a normal life. People who have judged me or given up on me because of it were simply not strong enough… not as strong as I am.
So what if I have diabetes, hypothyroidism, PCOS and can’t conceive a child? Well, tough luck… but this is what I was given and I can’t let it keep me from being happy. This is me, this is my body, I do the best I can.
I could go on and on, but one thing I can say out loud is that I may not like myself every day of my life, but I certainly like myself way better than I used to. And that, for me, is my biggest accomplishment.